Constant

You were my constant

You held onto me even when I let go 

I let go repeatedly 

But you still anchored me down 

The blows kept coming 

But you stayed 

You wouldn’t leave me 

No matter how hard I pushed, you held on 

My feelings for you stay constant 

Regardless of how many times I let you go 

I have never felt love like I had with you 

It was new, it was surreal, it was safe 

I let go

You weren’t supposed to let me

Fight against me

Fight against the current

Hold onto me

My heart breaks 

Daily 

It is my fault 

I let you go 

I knew the repercussions 

But I didn’t fully accept or believe them 

I thought I would be okay

But I’m truly not 

You were a significant part of me 

You loved me, the real me 

Now you drift away 

The anchor has been pulled up 

I fight against me 

I fight against the current 

& my soul screams

Too much

 She’s full of heart

She’ll freely give

But when it comes to acceptance 

She’ll push you away

She knows the drill

Dig deep you’ll see

She’s too much

You can’t handle her

Hell, she can’t even handle herself

She sees the depth

She confides in a select few

The ruminating wheel doesn’t stop 

Regardless of what she throws in front of it

Only she understands the severity of her soul

She’s too much for some

She’s too much for most

She’s too much for herself