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Monday, November 15, 2021
The source
Thursday, November 11, 2021
the battle rages on
the battle ensues...
so often i had the mentality if i could just get through this stage, this season, this episode, it would be well
i was a fool, loyalty or stupidity, therin lies the mystery
i have spent the last two years swimming upstream against a current i could not master
i fought, i struggled, i questioned, i reasoned, i listened, i ignored, i begged, i pleaded
my words were void
my prayers were empty
my hopes diminished
finally i have arrived again at a crossroads, the journey looks no different this time, yet i am different
many paths could be taken, there are no guarantees, there are no promises, there is hope, yet it is fleeting because we have been in this exact place
the more i dig, the more i see
the more i remember, i'm pulled backwards to thoughts of despair, pain & brokenness
do i risk dying on that hill all over again, do i betray myself in the process, is that what it would be considered
the angst bubbles up and seeps into my pores as i contemplate the finale of having to make a choice
the anger surfaces much too often as i'm reminded what i climbed out of to even consider moving forward yet again
the grief overwhelms me if i choose myself
Escape
i look Out i see the darkness i wonder what it would be like to just step out into that darkness to be weighted down in a different way to...
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How do u sleep at night? Do you just forget it all? Do you just erase it from your mind? Is it that simple for you Do you ever wonder why y...
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I’ve always wanted a tattoo of birds like this. It started with the thought of seven birds around my shoulder, arm or wrist. As a represent...