Constant

You were my constant

You held onto me even when I let go 

I let go repeatedly 

But you still anchored me down 

The blows kept coming 

But you stayed 

You wouldn’t leave me 

No matter how hard I pushed, you held on 

My feelings for you stay constant 

Regardless of how many times I let you go 

I have never felt love like I had with you 

It was new, it was surreal, it was safe 

I let go

You weren’t supposed to let me

Fight against me

Fight against the current

Hold onto me

My heart breaks 

Daily 

It is my fault 

I let you go 

I knew the repercussions 

But I didn’t fully accept or believe them 

I thought I would be okay

But I’m truly not 

You were a significant part of me 

You loved me, the real me 

Now you drift away 

The anchor has been pulled up 

I fight against me 

I fight against the current 

& my soul screams