Tuesday, December 7, 2021

The mountain I climb



Questioning all that’s within me

Searching my soul

Coming up empty


The answers aren’t here

They aren’t ready

They aren’t needed


The distractions must disappear

You must move forward with confidence 

But I need to know


At what expense

At what cost

In what realm does it matter


Mine….


Naivety has always been my best friend

The quiet comfort

Yet the screaming ensued


I closed the doors

Oh how I slammed those doors

But the truth kept oozing out

It continued to play cat & mouse


I couldn’t run fast enough

I still can’t escape 

It’s a revolving door and I can’t break free


I find the healing detrimental 

Yet it exposes my soul

It leaves me raw and bleeding

But yet a peace is supposed to wash over me


Where are you peace

You’ve taken the whispers 

The screams have come back

I can’t shut them out

They’re constant reminders 


The walls have caved in

The bricks have begun to fall

Can I handle the truth


This mountain I climb

Will I reach the top 


Sunday, December 5, 2021

At loss



 It wasn’t supposed to be this way

As okay as I am today, it still hurts

As much as I needed the solitude I am reminded in doses this morning of what we’ve lost 

These invisible forces stir up a storm in my soul


Escape

  i look Out i see the darkness i wonder what it would be like to just step out into that darkness to be weighted down in a different way to...