Saturday, September 21, 2019

Little did i know...

Little did I know my thoughts would catch up with me....
Little did i know I couldn't hide forever.....
Little did I know that all those suppressed emotions would come to surface.....
Little did i know that at some point I was going to have to deal with them......
Little did I know that it would take me into treacherous waters.....
Little did i know that no matter how busy i kept myself, they would bubble over.....
Little did i know it would put me in a dangerous place.....
Little did I know that no one could fix me......
Little did i know that darkness could envelope me away regardless of my faith.....
Little did I know that people can see right through you.....
Little did i know that even with God you can still feel incredibly hopeless.....

     I get it.  I truly do.  This being a season of climbing suicide rates, one just recently here in our little community, regardless of age, race, sex, spiritual background, we are all at risk.  When one tends to push away the thoughts that suffocate them, the mind that constantly races, the energy that needs to be stilled, that one slowly falls into his/her own trap.  They feel desperate, they feel guilt, they feel weak, even though He is stronger.  They feel hopeless, they feel discouraged,  they feel angry, even though He is stronger.  

He has the ability to reach us.  He has the ability to calm us.  He has the ability to "fix" us.  He has the ability to rescue us, but if we won't let Him, where does that leave us?  
     

Escape

  i look Out i see the darkness i wonder what it would be like to just step out into that darkness to be weighted down in a different way to...