rebirth

almost two years ago, i claimed rebirth

i have faltered considerably over those years

rebirth to me seemed easy, effortless

after all i had overcome so much already

but to my dismay the roots were still embedded in my being

twisted deeper as i neglected to abandon my past

i was stuck, grounded in my past

in the future that i mercilessly prayed for

i was relentless to hold onto something that had been long gone 

and i could not accept it, i still don't know if i can or if i ever will