Today I am listening

Feelings are not my friend

Flooding my soul are the thoughts

Swirling & twisting around my heart

Squeezing so tightly I feel the air leave

Questioning this new found freedom 

So fleeting

Does it only last for a time

Will it always be like this

Am I a hypocrite 

Can I ever fully walk away

The days will accumulate but new days are coming

What to expect is crushing

What am I truly so afraid of

Why is that last brick holding on

Why have you not smashed to the floor

Just let me go

Let me be released from any & all reminders

Show me that it’s okay 

Tear away the guilt that plagues my soul

Rid me of this hatred that eats away at my bones