if only he loved me as he loved alcohol

if only he loved me enough to make it stop

if only he loved me to survive his addiction

if only i loved him enough to let him go

if only i loved him & entrusted him to someone other than me

if only i loved him to see the damage we were both creating

if only he loved me to open his eyes to his destruction

if only he loved me to see his true self

if only he loved me to continue to persevere

if only i loved him to see that i can't go back

if only i loved him to know i won't survive this

if only i loved myself as much as i desperately love him