Get it out

I seriously debated about writing tonight…

    the whole reason I started this blog was to get it out

    to get it out of my system

    to let the feelings flow

    to not hold them in anymore

    to have a voice

    to have the freedom to allow those feelings to escape my body

My house resembles my mental state… 

Each night I come home, I see the clutter, I see the mess, and I see the challenges…

I want to take a moment and clean it all up… But I don’t, the look of it all is overwhelming, as the weight of it all is overwhelming…

It’s a constant reminder that I can’t keep up…

I can’t keep up with the physical work of it all nor the mental work of it all…

I’m reminded that I can do better, that I should do better, why did I let it get like this?

~The chaos of it all, is insanity

~The work it will take to deliver what’s promised is at times excruciating

~~For such a time is this