What I’m looking for

 

What am I looking for

What are the facts

What am I missing

What do I want

I still haven’t found what I’m looking for

The facts are clear as day 

Present in front of me

Like hammers pounding my soul

& smashing my heart

The pieces continue to fly around me 

& destroy any sense of peace I have 

I’m missing a piece of my soul 

A piece of my being that was torn away slowly

Over time

Into a million pieces 

It’s impossible to put it back together 

I want out 

I want to escape

I want to leave

I want to not hurt anymore

I want it all to stop

The reminders

The memories

The constant blurs that flash before me