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these sunflowers represent "beauty from ashes, at least they did when I first planted them
this "dirt pile" was a fire pit at one time
a fire pit my "person" had created
it was a project he threw himself into, to help his recovery
it was a process & he transformed our front yard
it was temporary but at the time it was beautiful
so beautiful it broke my heart because I knew the struggle for him to get to that point
so beautiful because he was Tony again, we were a family again, he was constant & present in our lives
I thought at that time God had given him this gift & this was our broken turned into beautiful
that was almost two years ago
time slipped away, the disease came back with a vengeance that no one was prepared for
time moved on, a tree fell into our yard, crashing that fire pit & the beauty it once held
much like our lives, it created havoc
myself, my children, we preceded to pick up the pieces, we burned them into the ground
I watched the ashes dissipate as the smoke rose
it was a healing process, unknown to me, that would be a continuous drawn out process
a few months back I decided to plant sunflowers in that pit
I was skeptical they would grow
but much to my amazement they did
two giant beautiful towering flowers grew out of that mess
it made me happy & gave me hope
last week, storms raged throughout our area
they were not kind
one is still standing, but leaning considerably, the other is uprooted
I've hap hazardly tried to push it back in the ground, knowing full well I could just get a shovel and replant it
but I'm tired, so very, very tired
for now, it continues to sit amidst the sun, struggling to rise, but it's still there in the midst of all the uncertainty
